We are expecting...

I'm not sure but I think the term is paper pregnant?  Yes, we are.  Today, we sent in our application to adopt a special needs child from China.  It is so exciting and scary and wonderful all at the same time!  I know its going to be challenging.  I know that I cannot handle anymore children.  I know that I don't have the patience for them.  I know that I already "have my hands full".  I know that the adoption process is long and frustrating.  I know that there will be issues with attachment.  I know that it will be ridiculously expensive.  I know that a special needs child will take up alot of my time and energy.  I know that I don't know anything about special needs.  I know we are taking a big chance.  I know that on our own we will fail miserably.

But...

Jesus looked at them and said,  “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26

"...he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. " 2 Cor 12:9

^"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."  Phil 4:13

^"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world."  James 1:27

And so...we press on.